Apprehension

Some things are fine and ideal in the abstract, but come into question in the actual. I am finding myself wary about marrying again, for a few different reasons. (Note: I have not been asked. Just want to be thinking ahead.)

I like being by myself and doing exactly what I would like to do (or not do what I don't want to do) in a given moment. 

When I find myself defaulting to accommodation, it brings me up short. That is the last thing I want in my life. Scared the bejesus out of me. I am done lopping off parts to please.

I am still new. I am still weak. But I will do my best to stay true to myself and speak honestly with everyone in my life.